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Se Hoon’s Story no.2.For the Last 10 years
(世勋的故事2)
All of a sudden,
My life has lost its meaning like that.
After I lost the only one who comforted me with sweet taste of happiness.
Only one who has given me the chance of having my own family, my child.
Like a fishbone stuck in the throat,
Her existence is resisting withering away inside my heart.
Endlessly, bothering and hurting me.
Please, please be forgotten, Lee Jieun.
I don’t want to remember Jang Sehoon who loved Ji eun with everything.
I don’t want to remember Jang Sehoon who betted my whole life for her anymore.
Not anymore.
I thought I threw it away..
I believed I threw it away.
However,
Even when I close my eyes,
I can see her saying” We are different.”
I can see her turning her back cruelly on me.
I can hear the clink of ring thrown on the cold ground.
Whenever I open my eyes in the morning,
I still can hear her sweet saying, “ Have a good sleep?”
When it rains,
I recall her waiting for me in the rain
In that narrow alley in front of my house.
When I dream, I can see her shy smile
I wake up shedding tears.
Breathlessly.
I ran away like that. Ran away without turning back.
Mumbling this can’t be the end of my life.
Ah, I want to live.
Please, please be forgotten, Lee Jieun.
You made me cry so hard and feel miserable.
One day, I got the unexpected call from her.
I hung up heartlessly. I thought I did a good job.
But why it hurts so badly?
After that day,
I have a habit of looking at the phone which never rings
Like a fool.
Please ring once more
Please look out for me once more.
Maybe I shouldn’t have left like that.
Was it the only choice?
I am a hopeless fool.
Time is passing by little by little.
I can see myself who can’t throw away the cloth she bought for me.
I can see myself who can’t burn the letters from her.
I can see myself who look at her photo unconsciously.
Don’t wait for her.
She’s not coming.
She’s not coming for you.
I clenched my teeth and tightened my fist.
I didn’t lead that hard life all by myself to give up easily like this.
I will succeed. I will survive.
Before long,
I could see myself on the path of success.
Self-making student Jang Sehoon disappeared.
CEO William Jang became my new name.
Sufficient money and fame.
So, did I earn everything I wanted?
I kept asking myself,
“Are you satisfied?”
There was an accident last year.
There was a woman by my side and she lost her leg....
She kept trying to kill herself.
Everybody said that it wasn’t my fault.
But strangely,
I can feel her frustration seeping into my bones.
The feeling of thrown away.
The feeling of being left alone.
I thought she would be like that.
So, when she said she needs me
And looked at me with those miserable eyes.
I saw myself who was dying in agony and pain.
I saw myself kneeling down and being ignored by someone.
Yes. Yes.
What is love?
There’s no love for me in this world anyway.
So you need me? Just by your side?
Yes, let it be then.
It would be better this way.
In my life, I don’t need a love.
I don’t need my child anymore.
After ten years, I came back to my country.
Under the sky which made me miserable
As William Jang.
I thought I would never come back.
On the plane coming back,
Suddenly I recall someone
With throbbing pain in my chest.
Someone who gave me so much happiness.
Someone who gave me sadness as much as happiness.
I went the party.
Who is that? Is that someone I know?
Indescribable familiar feeling with piercing pain.
Ah………..
Ah………………..
It was her.
Why I’m running away?
Why I’m still running away?
I’m not that Sehoon 10 years ago.
How come I couldn’t say just a few words.
How come I can’t pretend to be okay.
I’m curious.
Why is she living like that? What happened to her?
Why there is some shade in her eyes?
It’s just the curiosity.
I wanted her so much.
But that was the past.
And I’m just curious. Nothing less or more than curiosity.
But why looking at her again hurt my skins, my every veins and my heart?
Why still now?
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[ Last edited by Onlyjin on 2004-5-12 at 09:12 PM ] |
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发表于 2004-5-12 00:41
